I don't really know why I'm writing in here, but it's late and I'm bored so I thought I'd give it a whirl.

So I know it's been forever since I wrote in here, and that's mostly because life has been hugely stressful and I don't really have much time for things like this. I don't even know what to say now, except to say that I am completely overwhelmed with things right now. I feel like I'm drifting away from my friends, losing my family, and falling behind on school, just to name a few of the big things. I'm also having some HUGE financial issues at the moment, Meaning I can't even afford to put gas in my car (my tank is completely empty at the moment and I can't even afford to put any gas in it). And I have class tomorrow. And an appointment at Mercy. And Bible Study. And no way to get to any of them. Lucky me.I'm also having a really complicated and frustrating time at home right now. I have less than no relationship with my parents right now, which makes being at home even more difficult than it already was (meaning I haven't moved out like I said I was going to last time I wrote in here. The finances never came through.).

Without Tim and Sean and Paula, I'd be so lost right now. Tim and Sean keep me grounded, and they also keep me looking at the positive side of life, at least for a while. And Paula is so caring and compassionate; she's like a mother to me in a way my own mother isn't. Having them in my life is such a huge blessing. God is the biggest part of my life right now. I like to say that my friends and family (mostly Tim and Sean and Paula) are my mind and my body, while God is my heart and my soul. I feel so lucky everyday to know that there is a God and that He's always here watching after me, protecting me, keeping me safe. Other people I'd really like to give a shout-out to here are Bob & Coral, who are always there for me, no matter what. And though these two ladies are far away and I don't talk to them much because of it, they're always close to my heart. I love you, Tia and Adrianne.

I don't even really know what else to say here, except that even in writing this short journal, I've begun to realize how lucky I really am. Though I'm struggling now, I know everything will be ok in the end.

Kelly